could your emotions be causing your chronic pain?
It happened to me this morning. I opened my eyes, rolled around a bit, and thought, "man, I must have slept funny". The last couple of days or so, I've had an aching, dull pain in my mid and lower back. Most would brush it off, say to themselves it's nothing and will go away on it's own, or I just need to stretch. However, having dealt with this demon before, I know exactly what the cause of this pain is, and how I can address it.
I can almost guarantee that the pain in my back is due to the fact that I'm dealing with a lot of anger this week.
Before I dive in too much, I wanted to explain a little bit about what connective tissue is all about. If you were to think of how the human body is constructed, we have systems that each have their function. We have the skeletal and muscular systems that keeps us structured, and mobile. We have our digestive system, we have a circulatory system, and the list goes on. But what keeps this all together? What is it that holds everything upright, keeps us firm, keeps us put together? Connective tissue! Connective tissue is made up of cells and matrixes, but of course there are different types. The easiest one to think about is something called dense connective tissue. These are the fibres that make up tendons and ligaments, which are the "cables" that attach muscle to bone, and bone to bone, respectively. Where does our society see most of its chronic pain? In this joint, or that muscle, etc. etc.
So, how does this explain your chronic pain from an emotional perspective?
Each muscle cell is surrounded by connective tissue, which is then grouped in to a muscle fibre, wrapped in connective tissue. That fibre turns in to a bundle, which is wrapped in connective tissue... until you wrap it and group it ten million times, (ok exaggeration, but you get it), then anchor to your bones. TA-DA! You have an upper trapezius muscle (those neck/shoulder muscles that always seem to be worn as earrings from stress).
That's a lot of connective tissue!
The hypothalamus (a part of your brain responsible for maintaining homeostasis, and the part that works closely with the pituitary gland to secrete all necessary chemicals and hormones) creates molecules for each emotion based on what you are experiencing. These emotions then get circulated throughout the body by the blood, and are attached to connective tissue for storage. Connective tissue has receptors for each of the five basic emotions: fear, anger, worry, joy/sadness (yes two emotions, but really two sides of the same coin), and grief. Every other emotion can really stem from these guys. Because it has a receptor for each emotion, if the emotion isn't expressed up an out, or down to the intestines and out, it gets stored in the connective tissue. A build up of each emotion in the connective tissue is then how people blow their knees out, struggle from frozen shoulder, or like me, wake up with a dull, achy pain in their back for no physical reason.
So why am I having back pain?
Last week was a really tough week for my household, which included a lot of trips to the ER for some issues that have yet to be figured out. Luckily, we've been referred to a specialist, we've been receiving a TON of support from friends (and strangers!) from meditations, to Reiki, to distance healing, and BodyTalk. We've been making sure to eat healthy, stay hydrated, and sleeping well (and when I say we I'm totally just partaking for moral support, and my own health!). But I'd be lying if I said I wasn't just straight up pissed. It's a tough balance between being calm, supportive, and positive, without suppressing my own anger. But I am, I'm angry that my better half has to go through something like this. It's hard, especially being in a healing role, to see him suffering. Those of you who have had spouses go through tough times, I bet you can relate.
I've been doing everything I know how, and when we are able to work through this less than ideal time, I'm sure my BodyTalk sessions will involve a lot of Emotional Releasing from my end. I am doing my best to release my anger in a healthy manner, but man, am I ever grateful to have the people in my life that I do. What's that saying? Admitting is the first step? Hopefully admitting to myself that it's okay to be angry is the first step in releasing, but if not, I can say for certain I'll be booking an appointment for BodyTalk veeeeery, very soon.
Until next time, stay pain-free!