True Forgiveness

What is it really?

Well it's no surprise that after a weekend of intense healing and learning in the Advanced Mindscape class, I was inspired to write a blog for you all!

First, let me tell you a little bit about my Mindscape journey! Mindscape is a class offered through the International BodyTalk Association. The difference between Mindscape and BodyTalk is that Mindscape has a ton of practical applications for any job that you have (or even just everyday use!). The class teaches you a set of skills to help strengthen the subtle senses, in order to pick up more information in your environment. I've taken the basic course twice (January 2015, and October 2016) and now the advanced course (June 2017) and I've met people from all different careers, which have found applications in all sorts of ways! It's a great tool for manifesting, healing, receiving information, problem solving, and what has helped me the most: conflict resolution! How many of you dislike confrontation? I know I can't stand it. So when the opportunity came up in Mindscape to be able to work with these skills I was all over it. It took me a while to really get comfortable in my skillset, but I use it daily now. Heck I'm using it right now to help facilitate my blog writing! 

I often use Mindscape in my BodyTalk sessions; I invite the energy of the person in to my space, and I work with the subtle senses to pick up information to help me in the session. How cool is that? (If you're having trouble picturing it, think of a lesser version of in Star Wars, when they call and use holographs like a Skype tool! LOL!)

So for this particular class, we had a smaller group, only 8 participants. Throughout the weekend, everyone seemed to have a little healing epiphany. As the end of the class drew nearer, I'd be lying if I said I wasn't a little bit jealous that everyone seemed to be having these healing moments of clarity. I hadn't gone in to the class with any particular issues I wanted to work on, but still, it's always nice to heal! 

Ahh, but then Sylvia told a story. 

This story, which has now completely turned my world upside down, is one that I'm going to share with all of you.  

Now before I do, I need you to remember something. When you get to the end of the story you're probably going to think, "Well good for her, but MY story is completely different." Trust me, it's not. 

Now here's a little back-story to why this particular anecdote hit me SO. FRIGGING. HARD.

My whole life I've been angry with many, many people, mostly people that have hurt me. But I could never pin point it as to who started the whole ordeal. I never understood WHY I was so angry. Like truly, life changing, white knuckle, pissed off at the world. I'm not talking about the lady who cut me in traffic. I'm not even talking about my ding-dong ex boyfriend that cheated on me more times than I can count. No. I'm talking, deep, soul shaking pain. I've had little thoughts, or ideas, but nothing solid. Why was I so angry? Why me?

You hear it in the news all the time, someone was caught neglecting or abusing animals. You hear about the children of different countries that are picked up to become soldiers at age 6, or sold to a sex trade. And we all get angry. Maybe some of us have even undergone abuse. Emotional traumas. Maybe we've lost children, or lost parents. Now. I think the common question to all of this is: "Why me?" 

Many people might argue this, but this is, and probably will always be, my take on the human experience. I don't know how the world started and I'm not going to get in to that. But what I do know is that we are all souls on this planet who have lived a variety of different lives, all in different forms. (That’s something that we deal with in BodyTalk- 8th Chakra work is clearing any emotional baggage that comes from a past life). During each of these lives, we have our lessons to learn as humans. If we die still having not learned our lesson, our soul just comes back to learn it again. And again. If we've learned all of our lessons (it’s rare), we finally reach ascension, where we are no longer human. (This explains the Ascended Masters that come to offer their guidance. They aren't human, they were humans who got their shit together and then became non-human).
 
So. During that period of debriefing, who decides what lessons we learned, didn't learn, or have yet to learn? This is where Sylvia's story comes in. Now I'm going to share the story exactly how it was shared with me. Personally, I'm not religious. I believe in Soul Contracts. I believe that whoever and whatever is kicking around as a non-human, is having a say with what life we're meant to fulfill and when.  If you want to change the word God out to Creator, Earth, Universe, go ahead. If you want to change Angels to team, master, etc., go for it. 

Okay- here it goes.

"There was once a little angel. She had just lived a beautiful life as a human, learning all sorts of lessons and having a wonderful human experience. When she died, she went up to heaven and had a little debrief with God. God asked her all sorts of questions about her experience, what she learned, etc. The little angel said to him: "God, I learned so many lessons, but I'd like to go back down to Earth. There is one lesson that I didn't quite learn." God asked her, "And what's that lesson?" To that she replied: "I didn't get to learn true forgiveness". Well he pondered. He thought. Finally, God said to the little angel: "No. I won't be sending you down to Earth to learn about true forgiveness". The little angel cried out, "Well why NOT!" "Because, in order to learn true forgiveness, you have to be very hurt. And if you don't learn the lesson, it will continue to happen. Over and over again. And I don't think I'll be able to find someone willing to go down with you, and have that experience". 

There was another little angel listening in on this conversation, who then approached. This second little angel came up to God and the other one, and said: "I volunteer to go down. I'll provide you with a life so you can learn forgiveness." This little volunteer angel was so sure of it. "But I need you to remember one thing. When I hurt you, and when you're angry, and upset, and crying out 'why me!’ I want you to remember exactly who I am, and exactly what you wanted to learn."

So. The couple that lost a child? The person who was abused? The man who lost a parent, or the woman who was raped? You can spend your entire life being angry. Being resentful. Crying out why me, why this, why now, but in the end, you are ignoring what that little angel asked- "remember who I am and what you wanted to learn". We are privileged to live a life as beautiful as we do. This is also why I am SO grateful for what I get to do every day, help people peel back those layers, take off those masks, all so that it's easier to see the big picture. The lesson. Release the anger and the resentment. 

Now I'm not trying to diminish anyone's pain. I've been there; I've been through pain. It is real. It's an experience I wish on absolutely no one. That being said, if you've gone through or are currently going through anything like that, I want you all to remember the story of the little angel, and the lessons that are learned from it: true, authentic, forgiveness. The sooner we can learn it, the sooner we can experience peace. 

After hearing this, I did work in Mindscape. I invited every person in that I could think of that I was angry with, and I spoke to him or her. I told them I forgive them for the wrongs they've done, and for the hurt they've caused. I wouldn't be who I am because of it, and now, having found peace, I am stronger than ever and able to tackle with confidence and grace the issues that my clients bring to the table. This story hit me so hard, because for the first time in 25 years, I didn't feel angry. I was truly, 100%, authentically able to forgive every single person for who they are, what they've done and why. And I only wish the same for all of you. 

Until next time, 
​K